Goodbye, 2010.

2010 was a good year for me.
I got the car. And I contributed a good amount to get it.
My commissions came in this year.
I got a new job and realized I do not really know what I want to do.
I carry on with my new job nonetheless.
I purchased my first real stocks.
This year was also big because Kd sort of officially lived with me already.
I can say I got a taste of the married life.
Married daw, more of live in pala. Haha.
Spent time with friends, family and the love of my life.
My 2010 was blessed no matter how I look at it.

For 2011, I will still be me.
Only better.
I'll work harder this year.
I'll drag my ass to really do well in my new job.
I'll finish grad school by October of 2011. I will finish it whatever it takes.
I will make things happen for Kd and myself.
I will show my family, especially my parents, that I love them.
I will be kinder to everyone this year!

Goodbye, 2010! Hello, 2011!

Keep spreading the love, Loves! :)

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Strive to do good.
Commit to choosing to do good every single day.
Does not matter what everyone else will say.
Does not matter what others do or do not do.
Just always strive to do good.

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Why will there always be something?
I guess it's not supposed to be like that..
But then it is.

Oh yeah, not everything needs to make sense.
There, a convenient way out.

Not everything needs to make sense.

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I wait without you. I can't live with or without you.

Countdown to Christmas

1 day, 15 hours and about 18 minutes 'til Christmas as I write this.

Same time about 15 years ago, I would not be able to sleep because of excitement. I'd fall asleep waiting for my parents to fall asleep so I could take a peek at my gifts under the tree.

Now, I am 22. Same time, countdown to Christmas is less than 48 hours and I cannot sleep because I am thinking of work: my quota, the listings that I have to establish, clients' residential requirements, other brokers and whatnot.

I remember my Dad used to always say, "ang Pasko para sa mga bata, tignan mo sila, sila ang sobrang masaya". Now I am saying the exact same thing referring to my nieces and nephews.

I don't really have a point to show. So there.

Oh yeah, Happy Holidays, everyone!

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I know I could do so much more but I don't know where to start. I can be better at work, in school and in everything else that I do but I honestly cannot find in myself the drive that I need for that.

I lost my rhythm and I cannot find it anymore.

Ano nalang, make a new rhythm?

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Is it just me, or are there really mornings that when I wake up, I just really feel so down. Like it's just so hard to get up and by hard, I don't mean because I'm lacking sleep. It's just hard because it's too heavy.

I am not so sure if this is the part where I should have a bigger purpose for being. You know, a bigger reason to stand up in the morning and work hard to earn a living. I mean, yeah, given that I stay the way I am -gay and all- the only purpose in life that I see for myself would be to keep my dog, Bruno alive. Who, by the way stays with my best friend now since my sister is suddenly allergic to him. He's starting to have childhood issues.. I think. Because he's neglected. I dunno. And oh, another purpose, to keep my car, Charlie, running well.

You see I name inanimate objects. That's a different story altogether. Anyway, there. I dunno, tell me.. Is it just me?