Dig

We all have a weakness,
but some of ours are easy to identify, look me in the eye.

If I turn into another,
dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me.
Sing this song,
remind me that we'll always have each other
--when everything else is gone.

So when sickness turns my ego up,
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.

Crossed Lines

All the lines in the atmosphere
has been crossed.
is being crossed
and will continue to be crossed.

Inked

I put it on my side.
Because I was created from a portion
taken from the side of man.
I put it on the left.
So it is nearer my heart.
I wanted it in the body.
To free it as well.

I wanted to have it.
My philosophy is that freedom does not come free.
It has to be worked hard for.
Things and people have to be sacrificed for freedom.
It does not come easy.

I have it on me now.
And it did not just rub itself on me.
It had to be put there. With pain.
Each line. Each dot. Every bit of it.

So does everything else in life.
Things will not rub themselves on us.
We have to get them on us. For us.
I have to get them for myeslf.
We have to take them and let them stick to us.
I have to take them and let them stick to me.
And people, we have to make them stay.
I have to make them stay.

It's gonna stay on me.
Just here.
Near my heart. On my side.
Emancipation.
Freedom of the body, spirit, mind and most importantly,
the heart.

Tonight I Can Write the Saddest Lines -Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, ‘The night is shattered,
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, and sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes?

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her,
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
That night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that is certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes,

I no longer love her, that is certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer,
and these the last verses that I write for her.

I Figured

I got a taste of my own medicine.

Haha, karma nga naman.

I'll Hold On

..by letting go of you :)

Although it would not be easy.
Not at all.
And there will always be things that I will never understand.
But hey, life is such.
Life goes on.
Shit happens.
But you were the sweetest shit that happened to me though,
for the record.
So there.
Let's go back to what we were;
friends.

I Know You Know.

Live the life you say you miss.
Care about nothing.
Turn your back.
Walk away now.
Run around.
But when the dust settles
and everything is clear.
Beyond our differences,
beyond everything else,
I know you know where you belong.
I know you know you belong with me.
I know I'm good for you
even if it does not follow that you are the same for me.
Deny it, it's fine.
Deep down,
I know you know you belong with me.

Let's Do It Like This

I live.
You live.
We live.
Let's live.

:X

Sweetest dreams, my sweetest nightmare.
Sleep and rest well tonight.

Six Feet

Hold me now.
I'm 6 feet from the edge,
not thinking,
just sinking.

Last Night

Last night was the last night
that I'm ever gonna give in
to thoughts of you.

Other angels are devils
in disguise.

I was always afraid of the things
that could make us cold
and break us.
Now it's here.
If I were to give in,
I'll take a breath
and make it deep
'coz this may be the last time I can.
This may be the last time you'll get.

One Reason:

I love you.
I will wait because I do.

Uncertainty

I don't know what's happening.
I don't know what can still happen.
I don't know what you feel,
I don't know what I'd feel either.
I just know that I want things back
the way they used to be.
I want you back.
Although I know that nothing is certain.
I do not know anything else
except that I don't wanna lose you.
Baby I cannot lose you.

Needles

Right now,
needles are pricking me.
A hundred,
maybe a thousand of them.
Even a hundred thousand of them.
It hurts, it pains.
Until you're here again,
these needles will go in
deeper and deeper
and deeper.

Astoria

It all began in this special place.
I think it will all end in that exact same place.

Sucks to Remember

I remembered.
And it hurt and it sting.
You said you were not thinking.
Go with the flow, you were flowing.
With her.
And you held her
and you touched her.
like you would if that was me.
It hit me.
It was painful.
I was wounded.
It healed but it left scars.
Scarred forever, maybe longer.
I am scared whenever I remember.
I'm afraid of the pain and the sting and the hurt.
Your touch betrays me when I remember.
You touched her just the same.

Once Upon a Time

I'm crazy. This is crazy.
But I can't help it.
Once upon a time, you loved him.
Once upon a time, you loved her.
There were moments when
he was The One,
there were moments when she was, too.
You loved them and they loved you, too.
Once upon a time, they held you
and you felt that those were the best times.
They became a part of you;
as you are part of me now
and I, a part of you.
Once upon a time, you called them yours
and you were theirs.
Just like what you are to me now,
once upon a time.

Irreplaceable

Finding someone that I can fall in-love with is nice.
But to be able to find someone who can make me fall again
after I have fallen is irreplaceable.

10 Things I'd Say If I Could

1) Give them a chance. They're reaching out. You talk as if you yourself give them a chance to get to you.
2) Thank you so much for before. Pain can sure teach me a lot of stuff.
3) You guys missed your cue. But I love you both nonetheless for everything that you have done and given me.
4) You say pretty fucked up things when your mad and it sucks but that's alright.
5) I look up to you more than I have ever imagined.
6) Sometimes, it's better to keep things to yourself. As in just yourself.
7) I never thought I'd see you this way, so real.
8) Try looking around, things have changed a lot. If I were you, I'd roll with change.
9) It's okay to let go, you know.
10) You tell me this is my life. Question: Is it really?