The Ultimate Crush

I am 20 now. I had a crush on this guy since I was in grade 3. I was.. 9. Yes, 9 years old.

He is my neighbor, my then-bus mate, my then-teammate, my then-playmate, we went to the same school obviously, went to the same church, went to the same university and took the same course.

Those were not exactly coincidences though.

I played tennis because he and his sister invited me to. I joined the tennis varsity so I can eventually invite him to join too. I go to church at 6 in the evening partly because the chances of seeing him there was pretty high. I started playing badminton before tennis because we played it on the street outside our houses. I wrote the course I am taking now on the list of course choices partly because I knew he was taking it. Part of the reasons why I actually chose my school now was because he was going there too. I tried to ride the skateboard and crashed because I found out he knew how to skateboard. I wanted my Dad to pick me up after tennis practice every time so that I could give him a ride home. I would buy so much candy when I was in grade 5 so that if ever he asks for some, I'd have some to give to him. I ditched my friend who offered me a ride from school only because he offered me a ride too. I smoked in broad daylight outside my house with my Mom inside only because he asked if we could smoke first before he left. I played guitar hero because he asked me to. I pretended I didn't like ube on my halo-halo just so he would dip his spoon in my cup to get my ube. I asked my Dad to go around first for a couple of minutes and not pick me up yet just because I was still talking to him. I kept the candy wrappers of the candies I got from him. Some of his messages were on my phone for 4 years, if my phone did not conk out, I'm sure it'll all be there until now. I pass through their street for the sake of passing there. I lose all senses for a few seconds every time I see him.

I loved hanging out with him and talking to him.

He is someone that is so wonderful to admire from a far.

Just from a far.