No Bending

I do not need to bend the pieces until they fit.
They fit perfectly. Effortlessly.

**Nothing else follows**

Thank you.
That you let me go.
That you taught me that I can never be too sure about anything.
That complacency should not be an option.
Thank you.

**Nothing else follows**

Snap

'Snap back to reality.
Oh there goes gravity.'

So the realization that not everyone is meant to be close to me sinks in.
Funny how life teaches these realities in the subtlest of ways.

Try

I should see with my eye,
not perceive with the mind.

It's April 20!

420 day!
Haha.
***

I Wanna be Close - Avant
'I wanna be your sun, your stars and your moon'

Soholiiiiid.

The memories aren't right anymore.
I don't want to remember.
I don't want to care.
I don't want them to be a part of me anymore.

I can't help it.

Wake Me Up

Closed my eyes.
Scientist was playing: .."Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry. I had to find you, tell you I need you, tell you I set you apart."
Telling myself I'd still light up the sky for you. Let me light up the sky for you.
You have my attention like a scream through a silent sanctuary.
Kismet --I'd travel for two hours to bring Butterfingers.
Hello. Goodbye.
I turned.
And when I was about to say I love your every color, your everything --I woke up.

I want to stay awake.
I don't want to close my eyes anymore.
I cannot afford that.
Not now.
Never.

Proof

This line is a proof that I am a walking contradiction:

There has got to be more to life than this.

Figure it out.

Again

I've said it before and I'll say it again.
The people who matter don't mind,
and the people who mind don't matter.

Read On..

Read on..
Through every entry.
If it hits you, it could probably be for you.
;)

Once.

Once upon a time you became someone I just used to know.

Words?

Words are not JUST words.
They do carry a lot of weight too.

Just Wondering

If the circumstances were different --would you come back?

Surreal

Surreal.
Beyond words.
Death cannot be as real until it stares you right in the face.
Until it takes someone who has been a part of your life.
Painful. Not unfair, nothing to be angry about.
Just painful.

Pain

And sometimes..
All that's left to do is to accept.
No matter how painful and unfair and whatnot.
Just accept.

Lightning Fast

It has been a year since last April 3.
A year has passed.
Another 1.
It's all too fast.