Goodbye, 2010.

2010 was a good year for me.
I got the car. And I contributed a good amount to get it.
My commissions came in this year.
I got a new job and realized I do not really know what I want to do.
I carry on with my new job nonetheless.
I purchased my first real stocks.
This year was also big because Kd sort of officially lived with me already.
I can say I got a taste of the married life.
Married daw, more of live in pala. Haha.
Spent time with friends, family and the love of my life.
My 2010 was blessed no matter how I look at it.

For 2011, I will still be me.
Only better.
I'll work harder this year.
I'll drag my ass to really do well in my new job.
I'll finish grad school by October of 2011. I will finish it whatever it takes.
I will make things happen for Kd and myself.
I will show my family, especially my parents, that I love them.
I will be kinder to everyone this year!

Goodbye, 2010! Hello, 2011!

Keep spreading the love, Loves! :)

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Strive to do good.
Commit to choosing to do good every single day.
Does not matter what everyone else will say.
Does not matter what others do or do not do.
Just always strive to do good.

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Why will there always be something?
I guess it's not supposed to be like that..
But then it is.

Oh yeah, not everything needs to make sense.
There, a convenient way out.

Not everything needs to make sense.

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I wait without you. I can't live with or without you.

Countdown to Christmas

1 day, 15 hours and about 18 minutes 'til Christmas as I write this.

Same time about 15 years ago, I would not be able to sleep because of excitement. I'd fall asleep waiting for my parents to fall asleep so I could take a peek at my gifts under the tree.

Now, I am 22. Same time, countdown to Christmas is less than 48 hours and I cannot sleep because I am thinking of work: my quota, the listings that I have to establish, clients' residential requirements, other brokers and whatnot.

I remember my Dad used to always say, "ang Pasko para sa mga bata, tignan mo sila, sila ang sobrang masaya". Now I am saying the exact same thing referring to my nieces and nephews.

I don't really have a point to show. So there.

Oh yeah, Happy Holidays, everyone!

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I know I could do so much more but I don't know where to start. I can be better at work, in school and in everything else that I do but I honestly cannot find in myself the drive that I need for that.

I lost my rhythm and I cannot find it anymore.

Ano nalang, make a new rhythm?

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Is it just me, or are there really mornings that when I wake up, I just really feel so down. Like it's just so hard to get up and by hard, I don't mean because I'm lacking sleep. It's just hard because it's too heavy.

I am not so sure if this is the part where I should have a bigger purpose for being. You know, a bigger reason to stand up in the morning and work hard to earn a living. I mean, yeah, given that I stay the way I am -gay and all- the only purpose in life that I see for myself would be to keep my dog, Bruno alive. Who, by the way stays with my best friend now since my sister is suddenly allergic to him. He's starting to have childhood issues.. I think. Because he's neglected. I dunno. And oh, another purpose, to keep my car, Charlie, running well.

You see I name inanimate objects. That's a different story altogether. Anyway, there. I dunno, tell me.. Is it just me?

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What do you stand for?
What do you fight for?
Why do you work?
Why do you dream?

Ako na.

My friends and I were talking last Sunday..

"Kapag achiever, di mapakali sa job. Yung lipat ng lipat kasi feeling niya there is more para sa kanya kasi achiever siya e."

I did not get the exact words but in essence, ganyan.

I have been in my new job for 4 days now.. And let me just say..

AKO NA, AKO NA ANG ACHIEVER.

EEEEEEEEEEKK!!!

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Hm.

I was thinking I want to stay here in this company.

My mom asked me why and I answered, "Well they have been good to me"

She told me, "They have been good to you because you were consistent. Otherwise, they'd cut you off. Do you think that if they find another salesperson better than you are, they'd think twice? No, they won't. They will cut you off. So now that there is a seemingly better option, don't think twice. Go for it. Learn to look out for yourself. You can still do that without compromising your integrity."

Weh.

Life is pretty simple. I think.

I always thought to myself that life is simple but we always have the option to complicate it.
Or maybe life is complicated but we can always choose to keep things simple nonetheless.

No, life is simple. Well my life is. I just always choose to complicate it.

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We all have our stories to tell and our own crosses to bear.
Let us push ourselves to just always be kind to each soul that we encounter everyday.
We will never know what they are going through.

Options

So many options!

The new job offered to me or to just stay in this job that I have now.
School.
To leave for UK or to just stay here.
The business.

:D

The red light is our go and the green light is our stop ;)
I<3you,KD.

:)

Right now, I like where I'm standing.
My family, Kd, my friends, school and work.

I have a great relationship with my family.
Although now, I think my Mom is mad at me because she saw my tattoo.
But other than that and a few kinks, my family and I are great.

Kd.. Well, need I say more? :)

My friends. I have the good guys. I love them!

School is okay. Good grades. Haha.

I like my work. I have a lot of free time and I'm earning good.

Thank you, Lord :)

Babe!

This is love and the rest is just whatever :D

Looleelooleelooo

So Kd and I have been thinking.. Are there people who really reach the top without ever stepping on a single soul? Because you see, during the previous national elections, the one who was clean, did not talk down, did not step on or mud sling anyone did not reach the top. Righteous people.. Really honest people, truthful people.. Do they really reach the top? In business, at work, in school, anywhere.. Do you know of anyone really, really kind, honest, righteous that reached the top?

TRY THIS! :)

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I honestly did not vote for you. But since we are where we are already and you are the one who is there, I guess it's time to forget the different teams we fought for during the campaign and fight under 1 flag now --Team Pilipinas.

I do not know how the administration would be with you as President. I have been very cynical about you leading the Philippines..

One favor lang, Noynoy. Please prove me wrong. Please prove all the others who did not support you wrong. Please prove the ones who supported you right. That they are right for thinking and saying that you are the right man for this job, that you will be the one to bring about the change we all need. Please focus on the poor then work up towards the elites, not the other way around. Please just be fair and be honest and be truthful --as you have promised.

Please.

Sincerely,

Angela Manese

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Pilipino, anong ginagawa mo sa Pilipinas?

CONSIDER THIS A FINAL APPEAL BEFORE YOU VOTE.

Manila Standard Today, Friday, May 7, 2010.
Opinion Page

CONSIDER THIS A FINAL APPEAL BEFORE YOU VOTE.

Note the last line: "As an old guy named Socrates once advised, to find yourself, you have to think for yourself."

For May 10, 2010:

This election day, go out and vote for who you believe is the most qualified to run the country. Decide based on what you believe not what others want you to believe.

Today's thing:

Woke up at 7:30am.
Pressed snooze.
Woke up at 7.35am.
Pressed snooze.
Woke up at 7.40am.
Pressed snooze.
Woke up at 7.45am.
Stood up.
Brought Bruno out.
Made Bruno's breakfast.
Played with Bruno.
Took a bath.
Left the house at 8.30am.
Drove to New Manila.
Got there at 9:03am.
Thought about how I love EDSA and SLEX on Sundays.
Walked to the showroom.
Met with my boss.
Ate a pineapple from the street vendor.
Went to my client's house.
Stopped to by 15kilos of dog food.
Realized I lost a 1000-peso bill.
Withdrew cash to pay for the dog food and Dad's epass.
Went to my client's place.
Got the check for his reservation.
Went back to the showroom.
Drove back home.
Thought about how much I really love EDSA and SLEX on Sundays.
Got home.
Ate a slice of pizza with Kd.
Bathed Bruno.
Now, typing.

It's only 3.03pm, only about 7 and a half hours since I woke up, and I've written so much stuff that happened today considering I did not include the details anymore.

Imagine how much can happen in say.. 24 hours, 48 hours, a week, a month, a year.. A lifetime.

Guess we can never really say we have not done anything with our lives. Every single thing we've done matters, every heartbeat that has passed doing whatever matters.

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Live life a day at a time.
Take everything in stride.
Keep the faith.
Keep hopes high.
Dream infinitely.
All things will be alright.

:D

Got my grades for last term!!
If I were taking an undergraduate course, I'd be in the Dean's List!
Saya! Haha :)
I love it.
I love school,
I love my work!
PWEEEDEEE!! :D

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"Moments just combusting,
we feel certain but we'll never never know"

-J. Johnson, Never Know

Kd is..

sunlight.
love.
hope.
a dream.
every color.

Today

Today is one of those days that I just feel.. BLAH.
It's almost halfway into the month and I do not have a serious prospect yet.
It's Sunday, I have a finals presentation on Tuesday and I have not started anything yet.
I'm leaving for Bora on the 21st and my plane ticket's missing AGAIN.
I was supposed to have a manning schedule today but I did not go.
I should have closed the client I met with earlier but no, I wasn't able to.
I have manning tomorrow and I am not sleeping yet.

But it happens. Days like today come and go just like any other day.
Tomorrow will be better :)

Just glad

I'm just glad that at 22, I know who I am.
Not trying to fit in; I fit perfectly.
Not trying hard to be someone or something else.
I just am --I'm happy, I still dream, I'm positive.

+

Be positive.
Sarap ng pakiramdam.
;)

Rejected!

Rejection after rejection after rejection.
My job requires me to handout flyers/fliers.
As in yung sa mall na namimigay.
That is required in my job.
Maybe that's the part I hate the most.
But now, I have learned to love it.
Or.. Hate it a little less.
Minsan lang it kills my pride talaga.

Anyway, this particular activity has taught me to handle rejection. We all know that in a specific mall, different kinds of people are there. Commoners and non-commoners --sorry but that's the truth. What sucks is to be rejected by all these kinds of people. Hassle siya kung hassle. But I've come to learn to view it as character building. Ganon nalang para walang hassle. I mean, in life, there will inevitably be times when I will get rejected. Through this, at least I get to practice how to react. Besides, only 10% of what happens in our life is out of our control. The other 90% will be based on how we react. Where am I taking this? I don't really know. I just wanna share what I think about this thing about my job. I still love my job though. And I understand that all jobs have their respective advantages and disadvantages. So yeah, there.

Apir!

Work.

What do I do.
I am a salesman. Uh, saleswoman? Mmm. Salesgirl. Di rin.
I am a salesperson. Yun nalang.
I sell.
I sell condominium units for a living.
The commercial spaces in the condominium buildings can work, too.
I do not have to go to the office everyday.
In fact, I hardly go to the office.
I just go there if there is a price increase
--to get the new price lists.
Or if there are meetings.
The meetings are held once a month.
Prices increase once in 2 months.
So.. Do the math.
What eats my time are what's called..
Manning schedules.
I man the booth.
Manning schedules are given during meetings.
There is manning 8-12 days in a month.
Usually, it is 9am-8pm for site manning.
And 10am-8pm for mall exhibit manning.
Other than these, I stay at home
or go to school or..
Oh yeah, I forgot, if a client wants to meet,
then of course, we'll meet.
So there..
I have earned a good sum of money in my more or less,
8-month stay in this job as a salesperson.
And what's cool is, they've glorified my title,
they call me an Account Manager.
Cool huh.
Sort of gives that illusion that it's a very high ranking job.
Anyway, so there.
Don't get me wrong,
I like my job.
I can almost love it.
It gives me so much free time
and still permits me to earn so much.
In short, my job gives me time to spend what I've earned.
So...
Hm. What do you do?

Confused ako.

Okay so an important part of my job are the pieces of paper that contain a brief description and photos of the properties in them. Fliers ba or flyers? Even the oldest people in my office do not really know. Weird because some of them are giving these out for about 10 or 15 years now. Anyway, so yeah, fliers ba or flyers? Hirap.

Bam!

It's never about what we get;
it's about what we give :)

Whatwhat

What really matters?
Is it money?
Having the best, highest paid job.
Is it the car I drive,
the house I come home to?
Is it the school where I finished college?
If say.. I finished at all.
Is it the age I lost my virginity?
If say again.. I even lost it at all already.
What matters?
The hand I hold when I walk around,
the conversations I engage in?
Eye contact I make?
Is it touch? Smell? Sound? Sight?
Which sense matters?
Is it the number of movies I've watched?
Beach trips I went to,
stamps on my passport,
restaurants where I've eaten?
The number of used hangers in my closet?
Bags in the hook, shoes on the rack?
Is it love? Honesty? Loyalty?
Maybe.. Peace, joy.. Or perhaps grief?
The negative stuff.. Pain, sorrow,
envy, jealousy. Do these matter?
What matters?

So.. yeah.

I'm not better than anybody.
For the simple reason that everyone's different.
In a sense, incomparable.
So.. yeah.
Nobody is better than anybody.

Grip

We all hold on to something.. Someone somehow. At that moment when we hold on to that something, that someone, we hang on to it with all that we have.. We give it our all, our best, all our might and our life and our soul. And then nothing else matters. It's just that one thing, that one being.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG.

I understand :)

They say that there will come a time when someone will walk into your life and suddenly, you will understand why it did not work out with the people from your past.

Well.. Now I understand :)

P. Coelho is the bomb! :)

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/02/21/bitterness/

Wordswordswords

Use words.. Your words.. To create your desired reality :)

It's Monday.

Feeling different but still positive.
Just a little weird.
Things change awfully fast.
But hey.. It just goes on.
A lot of things to get done --working on those now.
Many things inside my head.
Tiesto's Kaleidoscope album is playing.
I'm keeping my sanity.
Oh. This is one of those days.

Forgive but do not forget,

or you will be hurt again.

Forgiving changes the perspectives.

Forgetting loses the lesson.

-Paulo Coelho

Envy

They say envy is the most bitter among all human sentiments.

Then do not envy. At least try :)

Hey Lord..

Thank you :)

So you see, the things I want in this world is infinite.
They may be simple things but infinite just the same.
My resources are finite so that means,
I cannot get the infinite list of the things I want.
The solution?
I figured that I should be thankful for everything that I have.
Now. As in now. The things that I call mine at this very moment.
The result?
Joy. Sheer joy.
I do not have everything from my list yet, I am still working for those things.
But for the meantime, while I am still working for the things I want,
I am enjoying every single thing and every single being that's in my life now.
I am happy and I am grateful.

Try to be grateful. It'd be great :)

There are..

More important things that matter.

Practice Gratitude.

I have very supportive parents.
My family's great.
My family accepts me for who I am -entirely.
I am in-love with an awesome, awesome human being.
I got into grad school.
I have a job and I would like to believe that I am good at it.
My car's coming.
The new house will be built soon.
I still have allowance from Mom and Dad.
I'm working with my Dad to close very, very fab deals.
I have great friends.
I get to go out sometimes, I get to bum sometimes.
I can eat and eat and eat.
I have Bruno!!
I'm cool with anything.
I breathe, I think, I feel, I walk, I talk..
I'm here :)

Thank you, God.

It's your feet

Wherever it is that you are standing now,
whether you are happy, sad or mad about it,
is your doing.
It's your feet that brought you there.
It's my feet that brought me here.

For the Life I Want to Live

Abundance.
The good life.
Investments and business.
Stock market.
Mutual funds.
Offering to charity.
Giving back to society.
Peace of mind.
Meaning.