If...

If you are going to fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know who and what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me- or if anyone even thinks anything of me at all. You are falling in love with my inmaturity, with my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be clingy. You are falling in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I am a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes smile whenever I'm with you, the way I will text you in the morning even if we spent the whole night and even slept together just to say that I hope you have a great day. You are falling in love with how I would do anything and everything to make you smile and laugh. You are falling in love with the occasionally humorous or thought-provoking things that I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you.

But above all, the most important thing is that you are falling in love with me despite my thinking that it is impossible.

❤️

..

Thinks aren't always how they seem. Especially at home. I think this is the first time I'm ever admitting that things aren't how I'd ideally want them to be. But just at home. Everything else is fine.

This is it.

And you know it's not just one of those things again. This is actually it. 

I look forward to the lunch, dinner and movie dates, the night outs and planned or spontaneous trips to wherever. The parties and late night til sunrise get togethers. The big, IG-post-worthy moments.

But more than anything, I look forward to the everyday stuff- the waking up, going to work, getting stuck in traffic, having a bad day, client meetings, falling in line, doing errands and eating left over food at home stuff. It's these day to day things that other people don't see. It's these things that will make up most of our lives. And I look forward to them, with you. What we have allows us to stay in touch with reality and finding joy in the simplest of things while still staying in "tralala" as we call it.

I thought I'd never believe in this again. I guess I was wrong.

❤️

❤️

She said yes! ❤️

Tadhana

Sa hindi inaaasahang

Pagtatagpo ng mga mundo

May minsan lang nagdugtong,

Damang dama na ang ugong nito.

Di pa ba sapat ang sakit at lahat

Na hinding hindi ko ipaparanas sayo

Ibinubunyag ka ng iyong mata

Sumisigaw ng pag-sinta.

Bakit di papatulan

Ang pagsuyong nagkulang

Tayong umaasang

Hilaga't kanluran

Ikaw ang hantungan

At bilang kanlungan mo

Ako ang sasagip sayo.

Saan nga ba patungo,

Nakayakap at nahihiwagaan na

Ang bagyo ng tadhana ay

Dinadala ako sa init ng bisig mo

Bakit di pa sabihin 

Ang hindi mo maamin

Ipauubaya na lang ba 'to sa hangin

Wag mong ikatakot

Ang bulong ng damdamin mo

Naririto ako't nakikinig sayo